Saturday, July 25, 2009

I Miss Blogging!

Where do I even begin to catch up for the two weeks that I haven't been able to touch my blog? Even now as I sit here I know I shouldn't be as I've got so much to do but I just had to post something and visit some of the blogs I've really missed. I missed the memes and everything! I haven't even taken any photos and I'm going through withdrawal.

The only photos I've taken were from a meet 'n greet and I'm posting two of the views from the balcony of the hotel banquet room we rented for the party. In the first shot, the streaks of light on the bottom are actually car lights from the cars on the freeway. I think it's pretty cool the way it turned out.



Okay, so here's the story. I'd been unemployed for over a year and Praise God I FINALLY got a job. Let's just say that it's not close to me and from the time I get up to the time I get home it's about 14 hrs. That only leaves 10 hrs. to my day, and since I have some things to do when I get home, like eat, wash some clothes, return a call or two... my sleep time has been about 6 hrs. a day.



And to top everything else off, I'm so low on funds it's not funny. Some people live paycheck to paycheck. I'm living just to get to my first check. My unemployment ran out a month before my start day so I've had NO money coming in except what I could borrow and it's so hard for me to reach out my hand and ask for help because I've never had to. At the moment I've got $10 to my name and need a full tank of gas to make it to work next week. No credit cards to fall back on because all my bills are late but thank God they're willing to work with me and I know that some how, some way, God will continue to supply all my needs. I'm not joking when I say he's met all my needs during the time I was unemployed and I know He won't stop now. He didn't carry me through this race to drop me just inches before the finish line.

It was easy for me to see how people become depressed and suicidal without God's love and support behind them to keep them strong and focused. If you haven't been here, it's not easy to know you've got no money coming in and everything around you is falling apart, needs to be fixed, creditors are calling nonstop looking for money you don't have and there is nothing you can do about it. Trust me when I say that ANYONE can go from having everything to having nothing. I was a thin line away from losing it all but Praise God that I am still in my house and that the end is in sight.

Anyhoo...for anyone who wants to know where I've been the past 2 weeks and why, this is my life, this is my story. I give myself another couple of weeks before I can waste gas going somewhere to take photos again. I miss getting out taking photos but there is a light at the end of my tunnel, Praise God, and I'm focused on that light.

30 comments:

Jan said...

Good luck with the new position. You got it, life in So Cal is life on the freeways.

Blasé said...

These are the times when our faith is proven. I feel for your struggles, and am glad you did find a job.

SAPhotographs (Joan) said...

What a mess TB. I am just thankful that you found a new job and that eventually things will be okay. Missed you.

Gemma Wiseman said...

Your 2 photos here say it all! They are filled with light in every corner! That could be you, pushing the light through the darkness! They are the essence of you, your spirit!
And for the record, I have been in your space a few times in my life! But I did lose it all and had to start again!
I know how it feels and somehow there is always a miracle that drops by to help out! I am living proof of that!
Smile proudly lady! You're a hero!

Samantha ~ Holly and Zac ~ said...

Nice shots.

Good luck with your new job, it sounds like you are going to be and have been very busy.

I look forward to seeing your photo's again when you can get to take your camera out. You are a fantastic photographer and i do enjoy looking at your photo's.

Ebie said...

I always enjoy your photography. I have had tough times too, but I keep smiling and my faith has been tested so many times. Take it easy, one step at a time. We will be here waiting for your updates. Good luck and hope for the best! Thanks for hosting Watery Wednesday, we have a fantastic group!

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Debo Hobo said...

Hallelujah he is great. I am glad you are making it threw the dark and into the light. What a fantastic testimony! :)

Jourdan said...

You CAN do it!! I believe in you, and God believes in you...You will make it through, and you will be all the better for it in the end. Praying for you...
-Jourdan from 'Saving Grace'

Judy said...

I really like your attitude!!

Oman said...

you have shared your wise words to me when i am down and i cud only wish you good luck this time and hoping a praying for things to be alright.

Carletta said...

You are such a kind and gracious lady. I know there are good things in store for you!
I like how Gemma took your photos here and related them to your situation - she said it well. :)
All that's left for me to say is that we miss your photos. God gave you a wonderful talent. I know you'll be back posting beautiful images again soon. :)

Unknown said...

Neat shot of traffic trails in the first image, hope to see you blogging more frequently soon...Thomas

storyteller at Sacred Ruminations said...

I'd miss blogging if I went back to work too ... and we've missed your lovely photos, but trust that we understand this transition and are delighted to know you're working again. Hope you find time to breathe and relax through the stressful times and rest assured we're sending prayers and positive energy your way.
Hugs and blessings,

Stephany said...

Beautiful photo! I'm SO glad you found a job and things are starting to turn around for you! I've been in the same situation for over a year (compounded by health issues) and still don't have a job. I had to stop blogging in Nov. and just started again a few weeks ago. It's rather daunting to find yourself behind on your favorite blogs. Good luck with your new job!

(Previously: Piedmont Perspective)

The Birdlady said...

I'm saddened that so many people are having a hard time...hopefully there is light at the end of this tunnel. You'll be inmy prayers.

Mary said...

I've been wondering if you had quit blogging. I'm glad you found work and hope things look up for you soon. My husband lost his job in February, so I understand about the unemployment living. Keep trusting God and hang in there. Know that your blogging friends care and pray for you.

BNS said...

We've all missed you and your great photos. Hope your situation stabilizes soon, now that you have found work.

All the best to you.

Bobbie

DeniseinVA said...

Those are beautiful images and thanks for sharing what's been going on in your life. I'm happy for you in that you see a light to the end of the tunnel now, and the fact that you found a job is terrific. Good luck and even though we miss you in Blogland, we understand and hope you can share whenever you can.

SE'LAH... said...

Just stopping by for the first time today and I must say that I am incredibly impressed with your level of raw honesty. Your strength is also admirable and I truly believe that JAH always provide for his children. Your faith is wonderfully encouraging and I send lots of positive vibes your way in this time of trial.

One Love, Se'Lah

Karen at Nittany Inspirations said...

I just lost my job last month and I haven't even got my first unemployment check yet.

Karen at Nittany Inspirations said...

One other comment: Google Angel Food Ministries. It is a Christian organization which sells groceries at wholesale. They are all over the US. If you eat, you qualify. I hope this helps until you are back on your feet. BTW, congratulations on the new job.

Arlene said...

I wish you all the best in your new job. God is really great!

Nishant said...

Good luck with the new position. You got it, life in So Cal is life on the freeways.
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Anonymous said...

God is good. Yes, stay focused on that light. ;-)

Paz

Caprice- said...

God has a way of taking care of us and I think he wants us to really call on him so he gives us a few weeks between paychecks. Praise Him that He saw you through this. Trusting in Him made you stronger and at the same time, weaker and more reliant on Him. I was thinking this morning (I too have a long commute) about how my life has changed and how I have to trust in Him more now than I ever did before. It's easy to forget who the giver of all things is when you are self-reliant or have someone (in my case a husband) to fall back on. Thank God He stretched me and continues to so I can know Him better and lean on Him and not myself.
I know your struggles were hard- so much harder than mine. But how lucky you are that He revealed Himself to you in your time of need.
When He brings ut to things, He sees us through them too. Good luck with the new job and I look forward to your posts and pictures.
Caprice

Susan said...

Haven't been to your blog for quite a while until this week-- not sure how I even found it last year. Love the music you choose as well. Glad you found a job, just be sure to get some rest! :-) My husband just lost his job after 30 years...it sure is a strange feeling. Know that the Lord will see us through, must trust. (love it, "You are not Alone" just came on)

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